Okay, so Blogger apparently has a read more option, which is fantastic, because I have Ano Hana feels and I need an outlet of some sort.

Spoilers beyond the read more!!

ANO HANA IS A LIFE RUINER AND A SOUL CRUSHER.

Even after not having watched any of the episodes since finishing it last summer, I see a gif set on my dash involving Jintan and Menma with THE quote where Menma told Jintan that the love she has for him is the kind where she wants to marry him... and I broke.

I go through the tag and break down some more.

How can an anime be so beautiful and tragic that I have the SAME reaction a year later as I do when I first watched the ending? How.

Just... HOW.

I hope I have friendships that can last that long, or that can be repaired after years or months of separation. I hope I can have a love like Jintan & Menma, except I really hope it's long lived and I do get to spend the rest of my life with a guy that can love like Jintan does.

Just oh my god... these characters. Their friendships. Their guilt over Menma's death. Their feelings regarding her and where they are now.

How is it that an anime with only ELEVEN episodes can develop characters better than most other shows? HOW. I don't understand how it's possible to get so emotionally invested in such a short period of time that even now I am still affected.

And then I think maybe the problem lies with me and that I'm just too sensitive, but then I see people who also exhibit the same feelings I do and then I'm just amazed.

The music, the characters, the plot... I'm literally left with a broken soul and the knowledge that I won't obtain HALF of the love or friendship the characters found in each other. And that's mostly because it's an anime, but also because I think it's impossible to obtain that level of perfection.

GDI Ano Hana. I cannot handle this emotional breakdown.