Jessica has

Can I just say that even though he drives me up the wall and makes me want to punch him in the face, that sometimes his texts really make me smile, because he's such a dork?

Sometimes, the texts annoy me, but other times, it's just really cute. I probably only feel that way because his general lack of knowledge makes me take a step back and laugh. I like when I make him freak out over things too, but that might be because I'm sadistic.. or a troll.. either way :)

So, thank you, nameless dude, for reminding me that I'm not an automaton who is only capable of getting butterflies for manga/anime characters.

Now if only I could just (1) get over the fact you irritate me beyond all measure, (2) deal with the fact things are extremely complicated, and (3) that I could actually decide how I feel about you without changing my mind in 3.5 seconds.

*edit* NOT ABOUT WATSON.

I wrote this because a guy kept texting me random things while I was trying to study/be productive & because my phone is lame with texting and I get lazy, when he asked how I was, I said I was freaking out, which caused him to freak out asking me if he should come over or not because he thought there was a legitimate problem, which made me laugh/smile/made me write this! It's complicated with him, because life is complicated and I'm stuck in a love square and it's super awkward. It's also complicated, because I do not have time for dating, but all I know is that he makes me laugh and that I'm happy to talk with him and I get jittery with him. I play it off and I'm really mean to him, like REALLY mean (meaner than I am to Watson if you can believe it; this is also another reason why it's complicated, because he probably doesn't think I reciprocate his feelings) - anything he says I insult him for it, because he gets all depressed and like a little kid about until I take it back and say something nice. He's a complete derp about EVERYTHING, but he's nice - he's just really annoying and I think it's because he's nice.

The entire situation with him is annoying and I'd like not to deal with it, but it's kind of there.

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This song is my life.

Copy & Paste from Tumblr

I got to see my adorable cousins for the first time in over a year ♥ Needless to say, they make my heart feel super happy & I’m glad to know that our family silliness has been passed down for generations now ♥

I’m thankful for all of my friends and family who have supported me from the beginning and especially all of the support I’ve received since last year! It’s been tough, but the smiles, the laughs, and the tears I’ve shared with people I genuinely care about have given me plenty to be thankful for this year. It’s the first Thanksgiving in a long time that I’ve felt truly thankful & I can only thank all of the people in my life who make it so colorful ♥

"The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice versa the bad things don't always spoil the good things and make them unimportant."

I feel no need to say who says the quote, because it should be obvious to those who read this blog. While I may be on the fence about the show, it's quotes like this that make me like it. That's about as far of a confession as I'll go :P

LOL TIPSY POST. Not really.

Congrats, Allie & co, in convincing me to drink two cans of Mike's hard lemonade while playing two different drinking games, "fuck the dealer" & "up the river, down the river". To be honest, I didn't feel too loopy until I left the party at 11:40 and then it hit me. I was walking perfectly fine and everything was cool, until I got into my dorm and then I started stumbling around and I feel so tired.

I've drank 4 glasses of water and took 2 Advils, because Allie swore it would alleviate any potential hangovers I might have.

I drank 4 times the amount a normal woman should have. That's a big deal, except for the fact the cans contained 8% alcohol per serving. Convenient how the can didn't say how many servings there were.

Besides the bi-girls that showed up before I left, I'd say I set the tone for the party, because I surprised Allie, as well as Travis, Oman, Daria, and Scott. While I'm probably tipsy right now, I'm at least more conscious of what I'm saying than Allie, who was completed far gone by the time I got there. I actually got on Travis's case about letting her drink more, because she was CLEARLY not taking it well, but he had already made her drink 3 glasses of water.

I'm not that different from what I can tell. I was actually palpating my carotids and I told Allie that my pulse was going crazy, so she checked it and started freaking out. That's when I drank 2 glasses of water plus ice immediately. I'd already been drinking water since the beginning of it all.

I hugged Travis upon entering the dorm and upon leaving the dorm. Allie insisted on me dancing, but I refused. I could not be convinced that that was a good idea. Travis hugs were nice, I guess, but I'm glad I left when I did, otherwise I have no idea what else would have occurred, and I'd rather not. I was tired as it was before even going to the play. Speaking of which...

The real highlight of the night was the play, because it was incredible. It was WAY better than what I expected it to be. It was like Story Theatre in the aspect that it was a bunch of short stories in one play. What really made the experience so good though was the fact that Ms. Bronstead's son laughed the entire time.. even when things weren't even truly funny yet. His laugh was so cute and infectious that it made everyone laugh.

Plus, who can forget when he laughed at a Harry Potter joke and said, "hahahahaha Harry Potter!" to his mom :P

I'm going to bed!!

Went to Blayn's to practice my head-to-toe. He wasn't there, but Chris, Bryan, Steve, and Gina were. Had Gina not been there, I doubt I would have stayed long. I hadn't talked to her since a few days ago, but I quickly realized why I liked her so much despite only knowing her for a short period of time.

Chris, Steve, and Bryan wanted to go to a card shop and asked if me, Blayn, and Gina wanted to go. I was apprehensive, but gave in, because why the hell not go. Gina had NEVER been to the place in question and I at least had previous exposure.

The entire time we were there, Gina stood next to me making comments under her breath. Some brilliant blurbs:

Gina: "at the first table on our right is a baby bottle...."

Me: "what." *looks around*

Gina: "that's right. There's NO baby here."

Gina: "you know how little girl's underwear comes in packs of three?"

Me: "yeah?"

Gina: "look behind the register."

(a package of Hello Kitty underwear is sitting on the back counter)

Gina: "in between that and the bottle, I don't even know anymore."

And then, the best one, as we were leaving after having been there for an hour, Chris, Bryan, and Steve were gonna go to Publix and me and Gina wanted to go back to the dorm with Blayn.

Blayn (to Chris, Bryan and Steve): "So, where are we going??"

Gina: "We're going to hell. Oh, wait. We're already here."

I died. We were laughing for awhile too, while Blayn was asking us what was so funny. After arriving to Coastal, Gina left to walk back to her place and I had to go inside Blayn's apartment to get my backpack and purse, which I didn't even study in the least. It wasn't too awkward, but any situation I'm in tends to be sprinkled with some. I told him that I hope things work out positively with him and his ex!

I tried to tell him it was okay to talk with me about it, but the more I thought about it, the more I opted not to listen. I can't really offer him advice, since I've never been in his situation before.

Another positive from tonight is that Gina and I discussed Tumblr life. Besides ashley, she was the first person I followed/vice versa on Tumblr. I'm uber jealous of all the followers she has (over 1,000! holy shit.), but it's to be expected because hers is strictly Nintendo oriented!

In which I was embarrassed

As I stumbled to my 8am class after getting 5 hours of sleep, much less than what I normally receive, Allie bombarded me with news from Travis.

Allie: "So I told Travis that you'd come over at 11 and when he asked why, I told him it was because you were going to a play and he told me to tell you not to go, but I told him that I already tried that."

Me: "Okay.."

Allie: "He said you can wear whatever you want."

Allie: "well, he basically said just wear what you feel comfortable in. Like I'm gonna dress fun and flirty, but you can dress however you want to. He said that you can get dolled up for him if you like.. I don't know!!"

Allie: "Oh, and he also wanted me to tell you to not forget your sarcastic sense of humor!!!"

Needless to say, I facepalmed and called him a dork, because who SAYS that? Who says any of that?!

She then proceeded to ask me if I drank, because he didn't know if I'd want to and he didn't want to not provide something... or something like that. She asks me if I'd drink a lemonade, and I automatically think of, you know, LEMONADE, but she really meant whatever that alcohol + lemonade drink is.

All I know is that after the play when I go over there, I'm going to be all of the characters in this gif:

In which I was summoned

My previous post was #555 :D

So apparently after the play on Friday, I'm going to Travis's with Allie, because "he really wants me to go over there." Those were Allie's words and I couldn't make them up even if I tried. I contorted my face in a mix of confusion, "wtf", and :D.

Sometimes my facial expressions don't make any sense, but when I make them, it's always entertaining to see.

I'll probably want to kill myself by the time that ordeal is over, because it's probably just gonna be Allie drunk and Travis the wildcard, who I barely know, if at all.

Oh, and I just got back from Blayn's after playing N64 Mario Kart with him, Greg, Gina, and Chris, as Brian and Steve ate chicken nuggets. Blayn "broke up" with his girlfriend, and by that, I mean, she dumped him but she termed it as an "experimental break," so he texted me asking me if I was free & if I saw his status about it, because he wanted to talk. Since I had already driven out to get Chinese, I figured why not and awkwardly sat next to Greg while I ate my foose :D

In the meantime, pharm test tomorrow and I don't feel confident in the least!!

BS of the Week

Next week, I have two exams. One, Monday morning, and the other Tuesday afternoon. Allie is in my Monday class, but not the Tuesday one, because she dropped it during the first week of school.

Allie hand-wrote out the "answers" to the Monday morning's study guide. I say "answers" lightly, because she answers things in a half-assed manner/doesn't answer everything. She doesn't pay attention to the actual lecture at all, so she can hand-write answers. A 2 1/2 hour class, she spent only 45 minutes writing. We had a 15 minute break and I had handwritten MORE information than she had in 45 minutes. She seriously pisses me off, but I digress.

She gives me her part to type up.

My Tuesday class has FOUR study guides, all of which I have to do by myself, but she gives me the Monday class "study guide" to type up, like I have all the time in the world.

Do you want to know what Allie is doing right this second? SHE'S AT HOME. She went home yesterday after our 8am class.

She could have had our Monday's class stuff all typed out, if she thought for even a second about the fact I have a Pharm test, which is a bit more important in my mind than Health Assessment. It's not like she could have forgotten that I had a test the next day, because I've said it at least 10 times whenever she opens her mouth to complain about having a test on Monday.

I am all for people complaining about tests, but when I have the SAME exact workload with more work, because you thought it would be too difficult, please.. dear god, please DO NOT complain to me about never having time to do anything fun.

Bitch be crazy and having to associate her during school just makes me want to backhand her.

After our Wednesday class when I told her I wasn't doing anything this weekend (except now I have plans), she straight up told me to go home with her. That was a yet another "what" moment in my life caused by her, because she doesn't seem to understand anything.

tl;dr: Allie has once again ruined my life and I look forward to next semester when I will never see her :D

Dat guy

told Allie that he wants to hang out with me again! The day they all wanted to hang out, I'm gonna be experiencing Verot's Players doing what they do best and I regret absolutely nothing about my decision <3

Is it sad

that I'm considering making a playlist for my wake, which will not be until WAY into the future, and that the music on said playlist is mostly from anime soundtracks?

I don't think I'd want a legit funeral, because that's a lot of money and I really only want the important people there, rather than that guy I worked with or that girl that bought me lunch one day. I always kinda picture it as like in YYH, but even then there was too many people there that didn't even want to be there.

Maybe if I play this sort of music, randoms won't show up and it'll be the few, the proud, the Mar- my favorites <3

So here's a few of my heart-wrenching potentials, because a girl on Tumblr decided to reblog one and now I'm on a beautiful, sad, instrumental kick :D

Last Train Home ♥

Requiem for the Brigadier General ♥

Happiness ♥

It Makes Me Want To Cry Without Reason ♥

Serenade ♥

And that wasn't even taking from The Girl Who Leapt Through Time!

Anime, y u have such beautiful music that makes my emotions surge with the characters?! I don't even have to be watching the show to feel ALL the things when music this great MAKES me feel!

it's suffice to say this guy is nearly perfect

I spent a majority of the day with Allie and then from about 4-8ish, with Allie and her guy friend, Travis. I'd actually seen Travis around before and remembered staring at him while I was waiting for a bus, because he was talking unusually loud on his cell phone while also waiting for the bus. I didn't say that though, because that's weird.

Anyway, Travis & I spent the majority of the time making fun of Allie, because honestly, she makes it so easy. She couldn't figure out how to charge a laptop or to change the TV channel. She's not too bright. So Allie & I planned on going to get dinner together, so she invited Travis to come with us, and Travis looked at Allie who was wearing sweat pants and a T-shirt and says, "Okay cool. Wait, are you going to wear that?" Allie starts yelling, "What do you mean 'wearing THAT?' THIS IS VICTORIA'S SECRET" and I lost it. I died, came back to life, and then died again.

Now sporadically throughout today, Travis had moments of awesomeness. Like when I found out he used to watch Glee (he stopped during S2, which is somewhat understandable but still) or when he complimented me for supporting the Dolphins and said that I was a true fan for still liking them even when they are losing (which they totally killed the team today, so I'm uber proud) or when Allie said, "Great minds think alike" and he mentioned that he always thinks about Genie from Aladdin during Disney channel commercials where he disproved that theory and that "Great minds think for themselves".. or when he said "all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy" .. or when Allie said "the more you know" and I stopped myself from saying it, but he actually said "and knowing is half the battle".

And he kept saying how today/tonight was the hardest he's laughed in a really long time and that I need to come over with Allie more often. And he said it would be fun to drink with me around because our conversations made little to no sense as it was sober. And he told me not to be a stranger since I live in West Lake too and that I can come over any time I wanted. He also already knows that I don't drink or anything and said he wouldn't make me drink if I didn't want to. He pretty much stressed the fact that he's a nice guy, which I could tell from the get-go because he puts up with Allie.

I'll be the first to admit it made me feel really good, because I got to laugh to the point of tears, I got to have someone to gang up on Allie with me, and he made me feel like he actually cared to get to know me, plus he's a really fun guy who felt the need to say that he is straight RANDOMLY when Allie and I were talking about something.

Plus he laughed at my puns and my jokes. He was just a really cool guy :D

OH, and he admitted to liking NSYNC and Backstreet Boys. He even said he enjoys chick flicks too, but only if it's like a romantic comedy. If there was an alarm that would go off for being too awesome, that guy would have triggered it.

And when he asked me what I did on the weekends, I said I hang out at my friend's house and just watch TV all day and that I look forward to it every day, because I can hang out with people who know nothing about Nursing, and then he made an aside saying, "I know nothing about Nursing!"

If I ever found out he liked anime or Spongebob, I would die.

But he's 26 and will be graduating incredibly soon and moving to Orlando, so that's the extent of that.

Jessica meets awesome people at the most inopportune moments since 2011.

Sometimes, I really hate Facebook and the shit I run into on there.. but you know what?

Searching for a fuck to give. Fuck not found.

It's only the 2nd of November, but I'm so excited for Christmas that I cannot contain myself!