So, basically at this point - I've come to terms with the fact that a Nursing C is on the horizons for my Gero class, which is bull.

Teacher said there'd be 50 questions. LOL jk, there's only 39. Yes. 39 questions. Couldn't round it up to a whole number or anything, which already put me off from the whole exam in the first place.

Then the questions... the questions. It was the sort of straight forward test that makes you think it's not straight forward. I hate these tests, especially considering I HAVE to think about the questions in all my other classes I've had thus far.

I have a 78 in the class right now, which is the lowest score you're allowed to get in the program...

There's only one more test and then the final to take, plus the article review, which I don't even think I did that great on it. All I know is that I worked my ass off last semester and got all B's and an A. I'll be damned if a stupid class like Gero is my first C.

"Tonight, I want you to forget all of your insecurities. I want you to reject anyone or anything that's ever made you feel like you don't belong or don't fit in or made you feel like you're not good enough or pretty enough or thin enough or can't sing well enough or dance well enough or write a song well enough or like you'll never win a Grammy or you'll never sell out Madison Square Garden. You just remember that you're a goddamn superstar and you were born this way. May tonight be your liberation of all those things." ♥

"So, when you leave here tonight, know that at least one person believes in you."

When I heard all of this live, I was so overcome with emotions that I actually cried. It's definitely my favorite concert experience and I don't think I could ever go to another concert unless it was hers - it would pale in comparison. I hope I'll be able to go to her Born This Way tour, but it's not very likely.

Oh, and Boys, Boys, Boys is one of my other favorites by her, just because it's a nice, carefree song. Today is just Lady Gaga day :P

Feb 23rd day update :D

So I'm aware that crazy stuff will be happening soon, BUT, my feels are more about troll romance, which is this really elaborate thing with various levels of relationships and how it's constantly changing and I love it.

That's what I wanted to say :P I'm a firm believer of troll romance and I totally look at relationships in a similar way - that there's a thin line between love and hate, or in Homestuck's case hate and pity, and it just makes sense. I can't even explain it.

On unrelated notes, the hospital was good! I answered a lot of call lights, which was exciting I guess! It was mostly me helping people to the bathroom or the bedside commode. I haven't wiped anyone yet, because other people have or the patient has themselves!

I'm going to do a patient care worksheet this week, so that's kind of exciting. Hopefully I'll be 2 for 3 by the time spring break is over and what not, because these need to be 95s before April! Next time, I'll start earlier so I can have a little more relax time at the end of the semester.

Exciting news! I did my first injection today :D It was a pneumonia vaccine and it was great. I don't think I did all that well, but it's a definite improvement from when I was like 14 and gave my cousin one of her insulin shots. I also gave a suppository! I washed my hands a million times, despite wearing gloves. I'm really glad the RN let me do all of that, especially considering it wasn't even my patient and he wasn't my RN for the day.

I got to see a picc line get put in!!!!! I had to gown up with the face mask and hair bonnet and I got to seeeeeeee it. A picc line is basically this tube that goes from your upper arm and it goes to your atria in the heart. That's a long ass tube! I saw the nurse find the right vein to go through with this crazy ultrasound machine for the arm! She had to poke a tiny, super long needle into the arm and then fed the needle into the tube. She SCALPELED his arm so the tube could go in! It was crazy. Then this blood started gushing out - it was a super dark red, almost blackish red.

Then I got to discontinue an IV site :D And Jennifer and I discontinued one together by ourselves!

I did a dressing change for my patient, which was nothing, but this one nurse tried showing me this other technique where you don't wear gloves and I was not a fan of the technique.

My patient was friendly and some of the stories she told me were really cool!

(Homestuck is making me feel ALL of the feelings for pairings that I've only been recently introduced to and I keep re-reading the conversation and feeling my soul fly out of my body)

School work makes my brain want to shrivel up like an abandoned kidney from a kidney transplant.

I'd much rather be doing my usual Saturday activities with my loves tomorrow, but alas, it is for naught :C

Just a post saying that I either have the most understand boyfriend ever OR we're just close friends who like holding hands and complimenting each other, because he hasn't flipped out when I don't text him and even though I can't text during clinicals or what not, he'll text me saying that he hopes I have a good day.

I really don't know what he's gaining from this relationship, considering I never see him and we barely even text and whenever we do talk, it's usually me ranting about nursing. Kind of scared to ask, because I don't know if I'll be able to handle the answer - my body is not ready to hear something either stupid/dorky or potentially hurtful.