Happy New Year :)

So it would appear that it is 2012, despite not feeling like anything has changed, let alone that "the year the world ends" has finally arrived.

Even as I was reigning in the new year with Watson, it felt kind of off, much like how Christmas did. This entire year went by so quickly. It was an overall happy year, my best year in a long time. I'm apprehensive as to whether or not 2012 can top it or even match my 2011, because that year just meant so much to me. It wasn't a year of finding love and it was definitely more than just a year of finding happiness.

I found happiness through myself; I've gained friendships; I've regained relationships and they have strengthened. I've said this all before, but it will forever hold true. Maybe what I've gained doesn't seem as grandiose as everyone else's, but I'm more than perfectly fine with that. I've realized what's truly important and what isn't; I'm much more of a "take no bullshit" kind of girl; I'm honest and I've realized that people's opinions mean absolutely nothing. If I'm happy, then why should it matter what makes me happy. So what if I have an unhealthy obsession with fictional characters? I will go out and wear whatever my heart desires, whether it be something absolutely atrocious, something unflattering, or something that's not visually appealing to the opposite sex. I literally have no fucks to give, because I have everything I need.

And despite all of that, I found someone that's attracted to me in Blayn, even though I'm still constantly questioning whether or not that's even worth it. I've gained so much this past year and the fact that someone can be interested in me gives me hope that it's possible for someone to like me for who I truly am and not what I pretend to be.

For example:

As I tweeted before, my friend, Gina, posted a picture of her ukelele, which she has been wanting one for awhile now. She captioned said picture as, "her first uke" and I got such sheer and utter delight from it when I really shouldn't have - it's just one of those moments where the terminology picked up from my perusing of manga/anime for all my life has ruined my mind...

I have already accepted that I am Batman right now; I can't be bothered with romance, not because I'm too dangerous, but I'm going to be too busy to make someone feel needed/necessary/whatever it is guys want from girls.

All I know for sure is that 2011 is my best year yet and the years following that will have QUITE the bar to meet in order to surpass it. 

If that's not a challenge for 2012, then I don't know what is.