:D

(before I start, did the set up change.. or is it just me?)

So, I'm officially dating Blayn. I've properly made a fool of myself, but he finds that endearing. He laughs when he's nervous, which led to him laughing for 5 minutes without saying ANYTHING.

I was really skeptical about it and I gave him my ENTIRE list of issues with why I shouldn't date anyone, but like he said, "[he] shot them down like discs at a gun range," or some sort of Blayn-ism. He then proceeded to say he would shoot them down by saying, "OBJECTION!" which thank goodness he didn't, because he's said that far too much.

The way I see it... if a guy spends a majority of his day listening to you talk about your past relationships, hearing the things that have happened, reassuring you that he isn't like that and that he wouldn't ever do that, and does ALL of that for a good four hours without expecting anything or taking advantage of the situation - he's worth taking a chance on. It may not be end-game for me, but he's accepted the fact that I'm easily stressed, awkward, and a goofball, plus he knows how important school is for me. He easily squelched my worries/concerns/fears about it, plus he makes me laugh, and he's awkward in his own way.

He may not be perfect; he may troll & kill jokes faster than the speed of sound; he may aggravate me and he may cause scenes constantly in public; he doesn't have volume control and he's incredibly dense/oblivious. Even with all of these aspects, he's an incredibly optimistic, sweet, and honest dork who takes my verbal barrages as what they are, jokes and terms of endearment.

& maybe I'm getting ahead of myself for talking about him like I really know him, but I can't think of many guys who would get giddy, nervous (+ bouts of giggles/laughter), butterflies in his tummy, and flailing his arms just by me giving him a peck on his cheek randomly. He's an absolute dork, but he might be just what I need right now :D