TEN SECRETS:
1. I'm not as confident as I may appear to be. I put up a good front and try my best, but surprisingly, I am human in that matter, much to my chagrin. I wish I could always be the badass Amazonian warrior that I portray myself as, but I slip up sometimes. It's because of this that I often feel isolated and lonely, since I don't let anyone see that side of me.
2. I sometimes wonder if I'm learning what I want to be learning or if I'm just focusing on the money profit I'd get. My parents have always wanted me to be able to get a job where I wouldn't have to stress out about money like they do, so I don't know if this is what I want or if I'm just fulfilling their desires.
3. I'm incredibly naive. I put my faith and trust into people very easily, even when I know someone hasn't treated me well in the past. Because of this, I give out second chances like it's never going out of style. While it is one of my positive qualities, if my life was a play, my innocent nature would ultimately be my downfall.
4. I don't like buying shoes. It's just not something I enjoy just because my feet are proportional to my body, ergo, finding shoes that I actually like that fit me proves to be very difficult. Because of this, I really only wear two pairs of shoes and only one pair of flip flops.
5. When I get really annoyed and I mean really annoyed, to help calm myself down so I don't say or do anything that I'll regret, I imagine different scenarios of me punching/maiming whoever is pissing me off in the face. It helps alleviate the adrenaline kick I get when I hear something rage-worthy. It's really the only thing that saves me from having to go to prison.
6. I'm incredibly passionate about everything I like. I'm stubborn in that aspect, so a majority of the things I like now, I have liked for a very long time. Because of this, I'm very resistant to change, but it's been happening so much lately that it's getting easier to adapt. Lord help the poor soul who tries to convince me that what I enjoy is shitty though, because they won't be alive for very long.
7. When I'm having a conversation with someone, I always worry about my facial expression and if I'm conveying my emotions correctly. Sometimes, I'll tune out of a conversation just because I'm wondering what my face looks like and it's not even for narcissistic reasons. Due to this, I tend to over exaggerate my expressions that way my feelings can come across, even if it's mostly hyperbole.
8. Before I go to sleep, I always think of fantastic journeys and worlds that I could go to where I can be myself and not have any cares or worries. I look forward to sleeping so much, because my imagination can flourish and for those hours, I feel like I'm really alive. Sometimes, I'll just go through my day with the only highlight being that I can sleep. It might be sad and pathetic to look forward THAT much to sleeping, but for me it's my safe haven away from things that hurt me.
9. Some girls say they are tired when they are actually really upset and I can admit to being one of them. Being upset literally causes me to get tired though, because it physically exhausts me. If I'm able to take a nap while I'm raging or while I'm upset about something, when I wake up it's like it never happened. Not many girls can say that and it's something I take pride in. (By the way, the chances of the rage/depression leaving is about 80%, which is pretty good odds.)
10. I never know how to answer, "What kind of music do you listen to?" Whenever I'm asked that, I can't even formulate an answer. I don't really listen to a specific type and I worry that I sound pretentious and idiotic if I say, "I like all kinds of music." Besides, heavy metal and country, I'm pretty open to any music genre and it's not like I favor one artist over another for any reason other than catchy lyrics and a nice beat. It's the reason why my iPod is peppered with 90s music and music that wouldn't necessarily mesh together - I just like singing to the music and reminiscing about past experiences.
I love the whole thing, but eight is my favorite. I am the exact same way. I think it's very poetic the way you described it, because I too drift off imagining new adventures and experiences that would be impossible, but so amazing.
ReplyDeleteI loved your secrets. 5 is my favorite! <3 you make my day <3
ReplyDeleteboth of you make mine <3 :D
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