For once, in my entire life, I truly regret being naive and innocent and listening to what a guy says.
I'm not even talking about Watson, although HIS advice wasn't any better. I'm talking of the guy in question. He's awesome, he's funny, but no. This whole awkward situation could have been avoided if I looked for subtext in everything.
Here's the evidence:
1. Blayn told me the guy was bragging about seeing me all day.
2. Blayn said that the guy has a thing for Spanish/Hispanic things (blaring red flag, but I ignored it, because he's Hispanic)
3. IT WAS THE STEREOTYPICAL AWKWARD FIRST DATE WITH THE 21 QUESTIONS. Dear God.
4. He bought a box of Milk Duds when he knows that's my favorite candy, but when I asked for one, he said they were all for him, when he said he doesn't like them very much. Then later on, he admits to buying them for me.
5. He sat UNBELIEVABLY CLOSE TO ME ON THE BED. I sat in my spot next to Spongebob, in which case, he decided to basically sit a mere inch away.
6. He kept hugging me. I thought he was hugging me because I'm so badass at Mario games, because I am. I NEVER die. So I was gloating whenever I beat a level, because he always died.
7. It just gets progressively worse and all the details are on Twitter.
Seriously though. If you wanted the "hang out session" to be more than it was, which clearly YOU did, you should be honest and be like, "Hey, let's play Mario games, but I'll make out with your face while you are trying to actually play. Oh, that's a problem? Well, give me your face and I'll correct it for you."
If I wasn't so shell-shocked from what had occurred, I might have went ballistic to the point of never associating again with those people.
No, I'm not going to VGC tomorrow like I promised Chris that I might go. NO, I won't do anything tomorrow with him because I'm so fucking confused about everything.
WHY DID BLAYN HAVE TO THROW ME UNDER THE BUS EVEN IF IT WASN'T INTENTIONAL?! Seriously. Why does Blayn, the biggest flirt I have ever met who flirts with me consistently every time I see him, CONSCIOUSLY condone his friend to "have at me"?
WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I FINALLY MEET PEOPLE WHO LIKE VIDEO GAMES AND ANIME/MANGA, I GET ATTACKED/MOLESTED BY THE ENTIRE GROUP OF GUYS?!
Done. Seriously. I will just be checking out from this point onwards and becoming a recluse early. I can't do this. I can't. Why did this have to happen? Greg is an awesome guy and he actually likes anime/manga and I was so excited because all of Blayn's friends were super awesome and funny. and this is me being really superficial, but he hates tomatoes and onions - I thought Watson was the ONLY person who was allowed to hate delicious food for no reason. Greg is also like 5 inches shorter than me. I don't GO for that. I JUST DON'T.
I even told this guy that I just got done with an incredibly emotional event during December - I didn't say what and he didn't ask. Then he goes to like hold my hand and I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT.
So many boundaries were crossed and I had NO fucking idea what was going on, except that I was going to eat food and play video games with a friend. For God's sake, BLAYN came over to my dorm one time to play video games and HE didn't do anything like that.
My patience is wearing thin and I need to take an exam tomorrow and tell Greg that I can't hang out with him.. ever.
Patience is a virtue, but I'm super raging right now. I'm raging like that was my first kiss, but it's the first kiss that didn't mean anything. Seriously. I'm not a kissing expert at all, but no. That whole thing was just a no. It was like I hadn't ever kissed someone before! NO.
ANY GUY WHO EVER READS MY BLOG, DO NOT KISS A GIRL IF YOU TELL HER SHE'S YOUR FRIEND AND ESPECIALLY NOT WHEN YOU SPECIFICALLY CALLED THIS EVENT "HANGING OUT". THERE'S NOTHING SEXY OR ROMANTIC ABOUT "HANGING OUT". My God. AND THIS KID IS OLDER THAN ME TOO, JESUS CHRIST.
HOW CAN YOU BE OLDER THAN ME, BUT ACTING LIKE AN INEXPERIENCED PRETEEN? I MEAN, SERIOUSLY, C'MON NOW. I CAN TELL HE DOESN'T PLAY MASS EFFECT, BECAUSE I HAD NO IDEA WHERE THE HELL HE WAS COMING FROM OR WHAT HIS MISSION WAS.
I mean, really. I've been in the room of guys that I've liked before, but I don't jump molest them. Isn't that just common courtesy anyways?
I mean, I TOLD Blayn what I like in a guy. If Blayn REALLY knew Greg would do this, I would think Blayn would tell him flat out there was slim to no chance. I have to hope Blayn didn't know and his stupid comment before we left was just a "Blayn" comment... I mean, the uncannyness of saying, "No hanky panky, you two," is astounding.
Plus, why the hell would Blayn care if I hugged him or not when I was telling him goodbye? WHY ARE GUYS SO DAMN CONFUSING. Girls are confusing too, but damn. I'm pretty easy to read and if you can't tell that me pulling my face away = STOP or that me playing video games rather than continue doing whatever it is you wanted to do means that I'm not interested, then I have no hope.
Awww Jessica. I'm so sorry. But B have to give him one thing.... he has great taste in women <3
ReplyDeleteI would just be super straight with. You are not interested. It is early and you can save the friendship. But I understand why you are upset, for multiple reasons. I'm sorry that happened Jess :(
I'm flattered that he found me so utterly attractive that being in my room made him want to start kissing me, but it was uncalled for on a lot of levels, as you can tell.
ReplyDeleteI'll try my best to explain it to him so that things aren't terribly awkward. It's gonna be so weirddd; I'm so bad at this sort of thing!! I'll be okay though :)
It will absolutely be okay :) You are jessica! The most awesome person ever <3
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