A Grain of Truth

I'm so tired of so many things going on in my life now that I've just decided to stop caring and just act like a stereotypical girl. I will dress how I want even if it worries or stresses some people out and I will act however I wanna act. It's my life and I'm so sick of having to live like I'm actually Amish, like you so eloquently said I was one day.

I'm tired of tip-toeing around certain subjects that bother people and being afraid to be honest about the cold, hard truths. If you can't or won't do me the courtesy of being honest with me, I won't do the same for you or I'll be so brutally honest, you'll wish I just lied instead. I'm tired of doing all these things with other people in mind and not being given the same treatment back.

I'm tired of being your doormat that you created for yourself. I'm brushing it off and just being me. If you don't like it, I suggest you go elsewhere and cause someone else havoc.

"And you asked me if he was worth it, if this was worth it. I said, the thing is, the happiness that I feel when I'm with him is unlike any happiness I have ever experienced. But the sadness that consumes me during the long periods when the happiness is gone is unlike any sadness I've ever had, too. it is bottomless and makes me feel hopeless and sad and ugly. And I can't decide which one is more affecting, Can I live without the happiness, can I live with the sadness? I don't know, I don't know anything anymore." (Some quote I found on the Internet)