I can't wait until I'm out of this slump of emotional surging. I think it's really lame that I have to spend some of my nights feeling like a mute who is incapable of finding enjoyment out of anything, but yet intrinsic/extrinsic factors consistently put me into this mood without failure. It's like I'm trying to combine two opposing entities to make one simple, clear cut image, because for some reason, I feel like that's what I have to do.
Like I've been saying, I'm in a state of limbo, because I don't know where to go from here. If it's worth moving forward with the direction I've been going or just do my own thing while managing this crazy thing called life. I can't make a decision either. How am I supposed to make a legitimate decision when I'm constantly going back and forth on what is best?
I'm not 100% happy with the situation as it is and I feel like I should be. If I change my path though, I know I'd be the only one that's worse off because I'd lose a lot of connections and what not. It's just a really sucky situation, but I'm glad it's happening now rather than 5 years down the road.
Unfortunately, I don't have the time to be worrying about this, because of my interview tomorrow. I'll just focus on that AND all that other work I have to do before I fully become emo again. No guarantee, though. I wish I was as cool as Barney Stinson =/
"Whether you think you can or think you can't, you're right." (Henry Ford)
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