Don't, Don't Open My Door

seriously, don't. There was just a massive huge spider laying on the window of my front door, and I'm pretty sure I'm never opening that door again, let alone leaving the house out of fear of getting attacked by mondo spider babies.

But that's not what this post is about. This post is about one person in particular who, for lack of a better word, isn't very nice to me. Actually, rather than just focus on one specific person, let me just broaden this to people who seem to have a problem with me or just outright avoid me when I actually try to make an effort to "bridge gaps".

I'd like to think that I'm a fairly reasonable person who realizes when she acts out of turn or does something wrong. Me ignoring people? That I can understand if someone held a slight grudge over. Me not being around as much as people may like? This one's a bit of a stretch, but for argument's sake, I can understand someone being upset about this.

And yeah, I'm guilty of both of those crimes. I've ignored people who shouldn't have been ignored and I haven't been around for some people as much I could have.

What I don't understand is how someone could possibly have a negative opinion when they haven't even tried. So many people just get a negative outlook on someone for no real reason. How often do you encounter someone who just hates someone because of how they look? Probably everyone knows at least one person who does this. I at least learn and get a good idea on a person's personality before I start disliking them, because I'm not perfect and I do still have some qualms with people.

You can hate me as much as you want if you give me a reason why or if I give you a reason why you should. You can call me an idiot to all of your friends while you think I'm not there and just trash me, but please be a big girl and tell me you have a problem to my face. That goes to other people too: if you'd rather get revenge by ignoring me in order to feel good about yourself, then you do that.

I'll still be there, like I always was. So when you grow up and realize that you haven't been acting very mature, I'll be there and I won't complain or mention anything of it. I'll act civil, because I'm at least a decent human being, who does surprisingly, have feelings.

"Be careful. You can hurt with your words, but you can also hurt with your silence."