Mmmbop

If you had the opportunity to leave whatever hurt you behind you, would you? If you were at a point in your life where nothing felt like it could be changed, and hope was disappearing daily, would you leave everything behind? Or maybe some people would want to leave just for the sake of leaving and having a new change of scenery. But I always wonder how many people would do this.

Think about it. Think of how many people's lives would be so much different if they really did do this and ran away from their problems. Think of all the changes in your own life that would have happened, all the circumstances that could have been avoided and what new problems could have laid before you.

I think if I had the opportunity to see how the alternate reality me was doing, I would. I would love to see what would have happened to me if I didn't tell Ricky that I liked him when I did. Maybe there wouldn't have been an us, and maybe I would have met someone else that would play his part. One day my curiosity will get the best of me, but I can't help but constantly wonder. I wouldn't change anything that's happened. I just want to know how things would have been had I not made the choice I did.

I always would wonder when I was little how many memories I erased when I made a choice, because it was like eradicating a path I could have gone down. I didn't do this, so this couldn't happen to me. With every choice we make, endless possibilities lay before us and I'm so inquisitive about what the AU Jess is up to right now.

Maybe she's out partying or spending time with her family. Maybe she's actually friends with her roommate or studying more for her classes. Maybe she isn't different at all. But that's one thing I can never find out and I want to so badly. Not for any other reason except the fact that I love watching life unfold and it's something I ponder about from time to time in the crux of when I fall asleep to during my everyday life.

Oh, btw. Girls are sluts =P

"You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is." (Ellen DeGeneris)