Two quotes, not necessarily both pertaining to my night, but at different points in my life, these would be the quotes that would really mean something to me. I found them recently, but it just seemed like it was appropriate for tonight. I think I may have contradicted myself, but who says you have to make sense all the time.
"Because sometimes it's easier to say "I hate you" than "I miss you, I wish we didn't fight, I wish you would call me sometimes." Because sometimes, it's easier to think, screw life, screw work, screw everything, than admit that you're overwhelmed and feel like you're drowning. Because sometimes, it's easier to admit the simple things than say the hard things and realize how much you've been struggling and how much you feel as if life has gone out of your control."
"Do you know what scares me? When a person can say, "Fuck it! I don't care," and really, truly mean it. When they can feel that anger surging through them from their feet to the ends of their hair. It shouldn't be like that. It should never come to that. There should be...safety nets. Friends, family, something...anything to catch them so they don't reach that nasty, unforgiving bottom. Once they're down there, there is almost no returning. Not completely anyways. That past will always follow them. It will forever be a shadow no matter if they have moved on from it or not. No matter if they pick up all the pieces, throw them out and start over. It is always there. This scares me."
"Because sometimes it's easier to say "I hate you" than "I miss you, I wish we didn't fight, I wish you would call me sometimes." Because sometimes, it's easier to think, screw life, screw work, screw everything, than admit that you're overwhelmed and feel like you're drowning. Because sometimes, it's easier to admit the simple things than say the hard things and realize how much you've been struggling and how much you feel as if life has gone out of your control."
"Do you know what scares me? When a person can say, "Fuck it! I don't care," and really, truly mean it. When they can feel that anger surging through them from their feet to the ends of their hair. It shouldn't be like that. It should never come to that. There should be...safety nets. Friends, family, something...anything to catch them so they don't reach that nasty, unforgiving bottom. Once they're down there, there is almost no returning. Not completely anyways. That past will always follow them. It will forever be a shadow no matter if they have moved on from it or not. No matter if they pick up all the pieces, throw them out and start over. It is always there. This scares me."
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