I'm really nervous for the future, and everything that's lying ahead of me. I can't picture where I'm gonna end up, or how I'm getting there, or if I'm even gonna turn out alright in the end. I wish I knew who's going to be in my life 5 years down the road, because losing people hurts me daily and I want to know if it's worth trying to keep people. I want to be able to accept my psychotic self, because I know my mind is my worst enemy and that I ultimately control what I think and feel. My mind really enjoys messing with me, making me doubt my present relationships, myself, and whether or not it's worth it. All I really know is that, most likely, I won't turn out to bad, which I suppose, makes life and its hardships worth it.
"I only heard Justin Bieber for the first time, like, two weeks ago. I genuinely thought it was a woman singing. I'd never heard it before." (Daniel Radcliffe)
i think your gunna turn out all right! plus its always worth it to keep developing new friends and relationships, growing apart from people and replacing them with new ones is a part of growing up!
ReplyDelete(i like how, at least in the comment box im typing in, both of my "growing"s aligned right on top of one another!)
i doubt the ( ) part made any sense to anyone! 8P
I know how you feel. The future feels so unknown and weird that it almost seems bleak. But the best we can do is prepare and hope for the best, and that we have the strength to deal with it. I, for one, am confident that you'll turn out okay.
ReplyDeleteAlso, for some reason that I can't explain, the last line looked like it read "I won't turn out too bad, which I Japanese, makes life...." Yeah, not so sure about that one.