Paper Ships

Sometimes I wonder if having closure in past relationships or friendships would make it easier to get past the past. That maybe talking it out with people would allow me to move on and proceed forward rather than semi remain where I always have. It's hard to get over the past when I don't want to forget it, just as it's hard to expose insecurities and vulnerabilities to people even if they don't matter now. Then I wonder if maybe leaving the past alone would be better - that way questions are left unanswered and I accept that "it is what is is". I'd hate to find out answers to questions that I never would have expected because the old me was built upon fantasy, imagination, and possibly exaggerating situations. Maybe I saw a moment as something completely different than the person I shared that with. I'd hate to expose my moronic tendencies that I practiced in the past to people that really never cared in the first place. I guess it doesn't really matter. Nothing would end up changing, but I always wonder.

"For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else." (Ralph Waldo Emerson)