WARNING: Emotional. Seriously.

This is more of a continuation of the previous song post, but I didn't want to edit it, nor did I want it to be put into the comment section.

I think the reason why I get so emotional over Up and the music/song that accompanies that portion of the film, is because of the images shown and all that's happening presently in my life.

It's about to get real personal very quickly, so you don't have to read this.

My grandparents, affectionately named Mom & Pap Pap, are like my 2nd parents; whenever my mom or dad couldn't be there for me, they were always around. Some of my fondest memories involve them in some way, shape, or form, because when I wasn't at school, I was most likely to be found at their house. Pap-Pap helped me learn the distinct difference between "couch" and "coach" and why I couldn't confuse the two together; Mom helped me learn how to spell government and environment and how there's silent n's & she also gave me my first cooking lesson. So it goes beyond saying that they are extremely important to me.

Well, as it stands, Mom isn't doing too well. I know she's sick with something, but when it comes right down to it, I'm in the dark. When I ask, it gets hushed up and swept under the family rug, because it's just something we don't talk about. The last thing I heard was that she had tumors/cancer on her lungs, and I think she could an operation to remove most of the cancer/tumor/whatever it was. Now whenever I visit, I almost always start tearing up, because I can see the decline that her happy optimistic attitude can't make up for. She was laying on the couch the last time I saw her, because her back was hurting and she was taking copious amounts of medicine for who knows what. She has glaucoma in one eye, which I know she tried getting corrected, but I guess it wasn't treatable.

So seeing Up is like watching Mom & Pap Pap for me. Their personalities are mirrored exactly the same. Pap Pap is the reserved one who comes across as a grumpy old man and Mom has always been the cheerful, overly friendly one who loves taking pictures. I think it's for this reason why Up means so much to me and why I feel so much towards a movie that explains emotions I'm not 100% certain on myself.

I always told myself that I want a love like how Mom & Pap Pap love one another, that despite Pap Pap having two bad knees, he will do the chores around the house, while Mom rests, without ever expecting something in return.

It's hard sometimes, because I'm e-mail pen pals with Mom and sometimes I can't e-mail back as promptly or often as I should. I constantly worry about whether or not it might be the last e-mail I get and I never got back to her. I know she wouldn't want me to be worrying about that, but it's still my worry nonetheless.

I know life shouldn't be lived in the fear of when death takes us away, but I still always get a twinge of sadness when I think about what I would do if it really were to happen. I mean, even now, my emotions are getting the better of me, but it's better to write it out then to harbor the worry and sad feelings myself.

SONG #16 = A SONG THAT HAS MADE YOU CRY.

When I first saw this movie, I was so excited and had NO idea how deep and emotional this movie really was. I just saw Disney/Pixar and assumed happy-go-lucky. I was terribly wrong.

This song played within the first 10 minutes of the movie and I was crying my eyes out. Once you get me crying, it's like a never-ending waterworks show, so every single sentimental thing thereafter brought tears to my eyes. This is such an emotional movie for me that even when there were funny parts, it was like I had a pain in my heart for the characters.

I still cry no matter how many times I've seen this movie, which is quite a few times, but this music just tears my heartstrings into tiny pieces. The Totoro theme song always cheers me up after hearing this, so this is like my Kryptonite.

Ergo, if I ever hear any of my immediate friends randomly playing this song, I may either attack them or start crying like a baby. Neither option is better than the other, so play your music wisely :D

I'm sorry, but I had to post the music with the actual scene it correlated with. I'm a glutton for punishment.

I can't wait until I have the Carl to my Ellie. I think I would give up almost anything to have someone that I love, love me as much as he did her, that even after death, he always thought of her, even if that may not be an entirely healthy way to grieve. It's really powerful to see ANY couple withstand so much hardship and still love/dote on each other <3 To me, that's the most beautiful thing about this movie: the aspect of love and dreams.

SONG #15 = A SONG YOU LOVE SINGING ALONG TO.

This is incredibly difficult, because I've been saving one song in particular and I'm not sure to use it here, or if I should use it for my favorite song, because it counts as both :C It also counts as a song I could listen to all day. SO DIFFICULT.

I've decided to save the original song and post another :D

I love singing this song & when I do, I sing both parts in extremely obnoxious and true to life voices! When Ricky used to come over to my dorm, we would sing this song in my dorm, but now I just sing it solo, so I'm surprised ANY of my roommates would even consider living with me again next year. Especially since they wouldn't appreciate where this song came from, but maybe my voices are so fantastic that it's well worth it :D

I have never seen this musical, but after listening to this song, as well as "It Sucks To Be Me," another song I love singing to, I have vowed to watch this musical in its entirety at some point in my life.

Plus, the amount of videos of TV shows and animes that I love to this song are so plentiful, that I could listen to this song multiple times and always enjoy it, even if I can't sing to it. Like I didn't right now, because Roommates are sleeping.. but I really had to refrain myself :P

SONG #14 = A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF YOUR BOYFRIEND.

Well, this song works for a plethora of reasons <3

I am pretty violent at least jokingly; when I'm in love, I become like a completely different person and I want to spend all my time with them, because of how they make me feel; I often can't describe my feelings eloquently, so I act out passionately with my feelings, which to normal people makes it appear that I'm "overreacting"; the words I say are not always beautiful and flowery, but I mean well; I'm also quite the stereotypical female romantic in the fact that I fall in love very easily & when I fall, I fall hard.

It also helps that I really like singing along with this song and whenever I get those little butterflies, this song races through my head. I really love this song and listening to it always makes me think of one person in particular, so my smile stays affixed on my face in its usual goofy fashion :D

SONG #13 = A SONG THAT REMINDS YOU OF A FORMER FRIEND.

By The Dresden Dolls ^^

I think the word former has negative connotations, so I'm going to treat this as a fizzled out friendship that could pick up again if both parties committed to picking it back up. I'm not going to name drop, but we used to go to Coconut Point together all the time and one time on the way over she played this song. I loved it and since hearing it, I've downloaded it and listened to it to the point of insanity.

But seriously, who wouldn't want a coin operated boy? This song makes a very good argument. I'm curious to know how other people feel about the song :D

By the way, I was dead-set on putting the music video up, but for some reason I wasn't able to obtain the code for it, which makes me sad. I hope you guys don't just stare at the blinding green font of the lyrics.. why anyone would use lime green as a color is beyond me!

Dear, Lord.

I go along with a lot of things my roommates say because I know there's no point. It's like talking to a brick wall.. or something even less cognizant. I'm not saying Roommates lack a brain, but they often go with what they think and not what other people say, whether it's fact or not.

But now, Roommate wants to put tomato sauce down our shower drain in order to unclog it. I'm no plumber, but I've never heard of this being a fix to a drain issue. This sounds like such an IDIOTIC solution that if it actually works, I'd be surprised and apologized for ever questioning her logic.

I don't even know what to say. I'm BEYOND fixing the shower, because I'm not going to pay for it when I move out. It's really not even that big of a deal - there's only a month left & they don't check the shower to make sure it works. Let someone else worry about it; don't pour tomato sauce down it like it's some pizza maker.

#facepalm

*edit*

Nothing makes me more happy than goofing around even when it's in front of my parents. Seriously, I get a big dorky smile on my face when I do so. I officially want to go to college up in Orlando just to make sure I always get these feelings <3

SONG #12 = LAST SONG YOU HEARD.

After a nice drive back to my dorm from my house, this was like the perfect cool down song <3 I sing all of the songs, but with this one, I actually make an X while singing the lyrics for an obvious reason.

This is the shortest song blog ever..