12-21-2011

Well, after the day/night I've been having, it's suffice to say that it was quite the Jessica sort of day, where the random and the "lolwut" occurs often enough for my entire life to be worthy of a sitcom of sorts.

So, I met up with Austin and Sarah and we had all sorts of fun times and discussions. Which, by the way, holy crap. The things I find out after not speaking to them legitimately since August. Holy crap.

And here I thought my  life was complicated.

I ended up going to Steak & Shake with them at 11 at night and then we ran into Austin's friend plus company (which, deer god, these people..) and then Jared and Gabi joined us as well.

Josh, the friend of Austin's friend, Greg, was drunk, so he was spouting WHATEVER, which was funny and this conversation happened.

Manager of S&S: "Okay, who ordered the strawberry peppermint shake?"

Josh: "That would be this guy *pointing at Greg, Austin's friend*, the one that likes dick."

Manager: "and the chocolate shake?"

Josh: "Oh, that's mine."

Manager: "You know, I've seen more women and gay guys ordering the chocolate shake." *walks away*

I was dying from laughter.

My mom got her teeth surgery done, so now she's on a liquid diet. I actually got to see her, because I had my dentist appt today while she was undergoing half the surgery (the other half being at a different location/doctor's office). It was kind of weird - actually, it was just weird. Because I've obviously never seen my mom sans teeth before, but her front teeth and the ones next to it were filed down to points. Kind of like how vampire teeth would look like, but in the front (obviously).

Now, they are perfectly normal teeth, but she's in a lot of pain. She has off until Tuesday to recoup, so I hope she feels better soon. I know the pain of having a procedure done to your teeth - at least, she was offered pain medication, which God knows, she needed, since they had to tamper with the actual nerves and what not.

I really hope Austin figures everything out. There's only so much advice I could possibly give him and it's something that I'd love to talk about with you guys, but it's not really my place to talk about it. I hate moments like this! He's stuck between a rock and hard place and I wish I could help, but I'd only make the situation worse since, ya know, Lizzy probably HATES me.

That awkward moment when your boyfriend texts you about hanging out on Monday and then randomly texts you, "do you think the movie Titanic is cliche?" as well as other texts that made sense for the conversation, so when you reply, "I like the movie", he gets confused, which makes you realize... he was probably asking one of his other friends for date advice, but accidentally sent it to you instead.

BLOGSPOT, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

OH GOD I JUST CLICKED TO VIEW THE UPDATED BLOG LAYOUT. DO NOT DO IT.

Why can't I change it back?! I do not like this... it's so WHITE and abnormal.

WHY ARE WEBSITES CHANGING THEIR LAYOUTS? I don't understand D:

This is on par with disturbing as the new Facebook layout, which is creep/stalker as hell.

On the plus side, you can now align your posts as "justify" which is nifty for those of us who prefer symmetry over anything else.

My original intention for this was that on Blayn's wall a bunch of his friends were freaking out and one of the people said, "who the fuck is Jessica?" and I liked it, because I figured it was a joke or being silly. Nope. His ex and someone else liked that question and then I said hi on there. Which caused said girl who asked that question to jump down my throat, reiterate that she's never heard of me before, and then asked if I was born from a dinosaur egg, which made me go ಠ_ಠ

but one of his male friends said that I was way out of Blayn's league and asked him how he managed to pull this one off and accused him of blackmail. It made me happy :D

I'm a dork <3

:D

(before I start, did the set up change.. or is it just me?)

So, I'm officially dating Blayn. I've properly made a fool of myself, but he finds that endearing. He laughs when he's nervous, which led to him laughing for 5 minutes without saying ANYTHING.

I was really skeptical about it and I gave him my ENTIRE list of issues with why I shouldn't date anyone, but like he said, "[he] shot them down like discs at a gun range," or some sort of Blayn-ism. He then proceeded to say he would shoot them down by saying, "OBJECTION!" which thank goodness he didn't, because he's said that far too much.

The way I see it... if a guy spends a majority of his day listening to you talk about your past relationships, hearing the things that have happened, reassuring you that he isn't like that and that he wouldn't ever do that, and does ALL of that for a good four hours without expecting anything or taking advantage of the situation - he's worth taking a chance on. It may not be end-game for me, but he's accepted the fact that I'm easily stressed, awkward, and a goofball, plus he knows how important school is for me. He easily squelched my worries/concerns/fears about it, plus he makes me laugh, and he's awkward in his own way.

He may not be perfect; he may troll & kill jokes faster than the speed of sound; he may aggravate me and he may cause scenes constantly in public; he doesn't have volume control and he's incredibly dense/oblivious. Even with all of these aspects, he's an incredibly optimistic, sweet, and honest dork who takes my verbal barrages as what they are, jokes and terms of endearment.

& maybe I'm getting ahead of myself for talking about him like I really know him, but I can't think of many guys who would get giddy, nervous (+ bouts of giggles/laughter), butterflies in his tummy, and flailing his arms just by me giving him a peck on his cheek randomly. He's an absolute dork, but he might be just what I need right now :D

OKAY.

So here's the deal.

I got to Blayn's at 4:30. He wasn't there because he dropped off Julian, his old roommate, at work. He arrives. We go into his dorm and notice Brian playing Paper Mario, so we watched him. Gina comes over shortly after. We watch him play Paper Mario until the sun goes down.

At 6ish, Gina, Blayn, and I go and get sushi. We come back. Gina leaves. Blayn, Steve, Chris, Brian and I start watching Spongebob. Blayn and I are singing and saying all the dialogue for said Spongebob.

It's 11pm. I'm getting tired. Blayn walks me to my car. He gets all nervous and we stand there idly in the parking lot as he gets the courage to ask his question. I see a shooting star while waiting for him to ask. He says, "do you wanna go out with me?" I say, "what does that mean?" he says, "like boyfriend/girlfriend" I say, "once again, what does that mean? Because I'm not sure I can do all the things that a relationship entails"

I start telling him about my previous history. Julian calls him. Blayn ignores it. I tell him to answer his phone. Julian tells Blayn that Greg is picking him up from work. Julian and Greg live near Blayn, but not in the same building. I tell Blayn that they might drive by while we're discussing whether or not to date. He swears that they drive the other way around.

GUESS WHO DRIVES BY YOU GUYS?

OUR POTENTIAL RELATIONSHIP GOT COCKBLOCKED BY JULIAN AND GREG, THE GUY WHO STILL LIKES ME. It's like they fucking knew.

So one thing led to another... I finally leave their dorm at 1:45 or whatever. Blayn gives me a long ass hug in front of everyone. Then Julian makes a comment saying, "so we don't get hugs?" I gave a hug to Julian, Greg, and Chris, because he decided to walk out of their dorm and join the festivities.

Either fucking way, I have to meet with Blayn tomorrow to actually discuss the things. I kept staring at Blayn and I even texted him saying, "I TOLD YOU."

AND SO IT BEGINS! I picture this ending badly. Like... really badly.

Meeting up

with Blayn on Wednesday so he can ask me that thing he meant to ask on Sunday night! I think he's going to ask me out.. or whatever way he'll actually put it, because I'm sure it will be dorky, much like him.

But I already told him that I'm gonna have to talk with him, because obviously if I was to date him, I'd have to make sure he understands everything and why I'll be awkward, because unlike him, I haven't dated a lot of people nor have I ever dated just for fun, so yeah. Wednesday is going to be a giant cluster fuck of crazy, because I have exams from 7:30-1:30 (I'll get out early though) and then I'm going to Cracker Barrel with my lab group and then I have to volunteer at Petco (which is supposed to be my last day but I'm gonna miss the cats so damn much that I'm putting it off - look at my life) and then this Blayn stuff where it's gonna be as srs bsns as any conversation with him can be.

Wish me luck you guys! Not necessarily on my finals, although that's needed too, but moreso to have the strength to actually say what I need to say and not get completely embarrassed about it!