celebratory dinner for my level 2 in Pharmacology? Yay! The fact he suggested it and seems excited for it? ALL THE YAY!

I know I should calm my ovaries/tits, but I can't. I refuse to. I feel like I finally proved my worth to the world by getting that level 2. I made the national average my ho.

I feel like I just defeated the Huns and finally brought honor to my family. It's one thing to have my brother, who's literally a genius and everything I'm not, do so, but I never expected this. I made up this sibling rivalry with my brother ever since I was little and I always compare my achievements to his; my parents never compared us, but you can tell who the favorite is by having all of us in a room together, which is why I've always had high standards for myself.

Bart is the epitome of perfect and maybe you could say that I have a brother complex for thinking that way, but he really is. He makes friends at the drop of a hat; he's not socially awkward at all; he meets all of these celebrities and knows what to say to not freak them out; he's always gotten good grades; he's had the same best friends since elementary school; he's amazing at video games - and this might sound silly, but for any given game that I'm spectacular at, he's 10x better. I would play Super Smash Bros on Gamecube for HOURS trying to get good enough to beat him and I never could. I can beat most people, sans the fanatics, except for Bart, who doesn't even like those games. Same goes for Mario Kart - I'd unlock ALL the characters, the cars, the tracks, EVERYTHING and he'd still annihilate me in a race.

I never felt like what I did was good enough in comparison to him and even though he probably would have done better on the exam than I did (considering he's a pharmacist and all), I feel like for a split second I could step out of his shadow and bask in the spotlight for once.

~get to know Jessica blogs~

Vague Post

I like the feeling of hearing the person's voice when you text them, especially now :D

The guy in question is incredibly silly and I've never met anyone that talks the way he does, so it's really easy to distinguish a text from him over any other person. Ignoring the fact his name is next to the text and all that, of course :P

But apparently, according to Watson, I need to troll around the library computer lab in the early morning to see guys watching anime, because apparently there's enough guys doing this to warrant a constant surveillance of the area. I've already said that if I EVER saw someone, let alone a dood, watching anime, I'd make an unhuman sound and scare them off. My excitement would know no bounds. You guys can attest to that, because you have seen me flail and squee. Imagine my reaction if I saw an attractive, single, straight male watching anime...

my brain right now

Jessica is weird (as usual)

this guy on Tumblr liked a whole shit ton of my posts, posts from 7 months ago that I don't even remember posting, and he started following me, and he likes FMA, he plays video games (currently Skyrim), he likes Star Wars, and he's straight. HE LIVES IN KENTUCKY AND THAT'S WHERE MY BROTHER LIVES. #mygod

I can't tell you how many times I have found attractive guys on Tumblr that like guys and I'm sitting here like, "oh, okay, I'm just gonna stare at your face and wish I was a gay man". I bookmarked a guy's Tumblr, because his face is gorgeous, but that's not a reason to follow someone, especially since he posts weird things, besides his face.

then this girl is liking old posts, as if to see if I'm worth following. When this happens, I feel like I'm being auctioned and I have to show my best qualities in order to get bids. I suppose that makes my Tumblr a prostitute if you looked at it another way. But seriously. DAT GUY though.

He's... perfect. I'm looking at his blog and he's the definition of perfect.

This is why I can never see nice things/people, because then I want them. I want everything that's nice in this world.

Okay

when you say things like, "I wish you were here" RANDOMLY, I don't know what to think and it's almost cruel to do so the night before my exam, which you know I have and you know I'm nervous for it.

It's still cute as hell though :D

Continuation of Before

He makes fun of the fact I waited outside and while I was waiting, I was practicing my head-to-toe assessment on myself.

He drives me crazy, because he can't speak in complete sentences.

He has weird taste in ice cream (cinnamon bun + strawberry. what.)

He makes fun of me for being polite to cashiers and says I talk funny.

He makes messes with ice cream like he's a two year old & when I give him napkins, he uses all of them at one time.

He's completely blind, but he still drove over to take me to get ice cream, which is incredibly dangerous and stupid.

When I told him that I was going to get food when he dropped me off, he actually asked if "we" could go, even though he had prior plans.

He causes a scene anywhere he goes.

He laughs at the most random of things.

I told him to have fun at Winter Wonderland and he told me he'd get me a stuffed animal.

He distracted me from studying, but it was fun & worth it :)

he texted me twice saying how much fun he had and that he's glad I spent time with him. I just cannot even right now :D

Dis guy

Just got a text from the guy previously and he either knows me incredibly well OR he just said whatever would make him feel better if he was in that situation/what normally makes people happy.

Him: "ok lol good luck on it :)"

Me: "thanks :)"

Him: "your welcome lol :)" (god his spelling is bad)

Me: "I didn't do too well :/"

Him: "Don't say that I bet you did exceptional :)"

Me: "nooo I got my results already :/ I missed my goal by 5%"

Him: "I'm sorry :( i know what will help you feel better. ICE CREAM"

Me: "my weakness :P"

Him: "Coldstone? My treat"

Me: "sounds good :)"

We're very smiley oriented texters apparently, but legit. Ice cream always makes me feel better, but that might just be a stereotype & he could have gotten lucky. Too soon to tell!

*edit*

he asked when a good time to go is and I said whenever and he's on his way now!!!!

Even if he's just being a nice guy, it's still highly appreciated :D