I'm on the edge of glory,
And I'm hanging on a moment of truth,
I'm on the edge of glory,
And I'm hanging on a moment with you,
I'm on the edge
The edge
The edge
The edge
The edge
The edge
The edge
I'm on the edge of glory
And I'm hanging on a moment with you
I'm on the edge with you

So Adorbs.

Austin's dog was as adorable as this ^, but a different breed. SO CUTEEEEE <3

So yesterday was Austin's Lady Gaga's HBO event and it was incredibly fun =]

1. I got verbally harrassed when I got there 5 minutes "late" even though I got there at 5:35 and the show didn't start until 9.
2. Watched Sarah and Chris play Left 4 Dead and I was freaking out while sitting there.
3. Played Castle Crushers with Austin, Sarah, and Chris, and I totally won the princess's love in the end.. even though I played as the king and that's a tad incestuous. For a good 30 seconds though when it was down to Austin and I dueling each other, we were near each other but not even hitting. It reminded me of when Spongebob and Patrick get into a fight during New Student Starfish :D
4. Scared Lizzy, who is apparently actually dating Austin, and almost made her go home because I was truly frightening >:]
5. Played Just Dance 2 and didn't majorly suck. In fact, I even set a high score on one of the songs #likeaboss.
6. Watched Lady Gaga's HBO concert and it was ah-maze-ing <3
7. Played Truth or Dare, which was INCREDIBLY enlightening and different. I can honestly say I've never eaten chips off of a girl until then and that was definitely the most bizarre dare I've ever had to do, which I'm not sure what that says about my social life or lack there-of.
   
8. Left his house at 2am and went to sleep around 2:30ish and woke up at 9 to celebrate the world's most awkward Mother's Day ever.

I hope everyone had a good day and got to celebrate with their mommas :D

The Only Moment We Were Alone ♥

because we all have that one song that can define who we are & this one is mine. This is my heart and for me, this is me pouring out my soul for all of you to hear if you so choose. Yes, it's a long one, but the path to love is never known to be short, let alone an easy one.

When I hear this song, a wave of serenity fills me and it makes me realize how empty I was before I had listened to this. It makes me realize how empty I might be still and that I should always look for that missing piece of myself that is waiting to be discovered if I just put in some time and energy to search for it.

I can see my life, my memories, flash before my eyes as I listen to this song and I picture the many people I've seen smile and how they've molded me into who I am today. How each individual hardship and joyous occasion can culminate to create something beautiful... to create someone beautiful: me. I can't take back the pain and hurt I've caused others and I can't make that a positive experience for them. I'm learning now through my own means on how to be happy so that I may be truly happy with all of who I am.

It's silly to say that a song could have that much brevity, but it's true. That's why instrumentals are my favorite; they give through their simple complexities and make their own definitions of beauty that cannot be explained in words. You just have to listen to it yourself. There's never a right or a wrong. It's there for you to pick up and interpret in any way you'd like - maybe that's why I love it so much, because I feel like it sets me free and that it can define who I am without even needing any lyrics to accompany it.

They always say that you have found true friendship if you can sit in silence with them and not feel the need to fill the void, that both parties find comfort and solace in the peace. True, music isn't silent in the least, but we're so used to hearing words mashed into a song, even if they don't correlate at all. This for a majority of society is "silence", because there's no explanation for the title or for its purpose.

So this is my gift to you, because I love you. I want you to know me better in the only way that I know how. Even if all you get from this is that I am a crazy loon who sees and hears things in a different light, if you accept me, follies and all, then I am happy <3

U MAD BRO?!

Apparently last night whilst I slept, Blayn was texting me asking me if I was awake and of course I wasn't, because I sleep at relatively normal times! So in the morning right when I saw it, I texted him back and was giving him advice. His girlfriend apparently reacts the same way I do when I get upset, so it was really easy to tell him how he should handle the situation. He won't be able to see her until Thursday, because she's going on some fishing trip or something with her ex, and he's worried she'll want to go out with him instead. So, I spent a majority of my day, besides wandering Best Buy without ANY help from the staff there *grumbles*, telling him he had nothing to worry about, because she never gave him reason to worry in the first place.

Well, I told him that I was going to hang out with Watson, so I wasn't going to text him anymore and that I hope it all works out. Blayn then sends me this little gem, "ok thanks jessica =) have fun i swear your gonna make some guy very happy lol". Now, besides the blatant grammar errors, this confuses me.

If he knows I would make some guy very happy and if he had liked me, why was I skipped over for an ex?

#sigh

BUT WHAT MADE THE DAY INFINITELY BETTER was hanging out with Watson & Ben, hearing his mom joke with the vitriol that Watson and I normally have, eating Chinese food, and then watching Doctor Who & playing Lego Indiana Jones :D

That turned my day around and made it very much less confusing!!

Third post of the day? WHY NOT.

So, I'm in a bit of a predicament, not one that isn't correctable but one that just makes me more socially awkward than what I enjoy to be.

Blayn has recently gotten back with his ex-girlfriend and kudos for him, since I have no idea why they broke up in the first place or ANYTHING about her. From what I've gathered, they've been together since at least before the 25th, which is significant because he came over to my dorm without warning. Maybe it's just because I was raised a certain way, but if you were dating someone, would you go over to the opposite gender's house and blatantly flirt? Yes, I am KNOWN to make mountains out of mole hills, but tickling me and laying on my bed and killing spiders for me and then teasing me by "throwing" the corpse at me is considered flirting, right? I'm not completely out of my mind, am I?

So, I'm in this weird state right now where I'm the fall-back advice girl. He texted me randomly after he had just got done slightly ranting on FB, which I guess is how he likes to handle his problems. I talked to him on the phone and he was venting about his problems with his girlfriend and I didn't really know what to say about it. I'm not about to spread his business over the internet, even if it's on my blog which I'm fairly certain only Ashley & Watson reads, but I'm horrible at advice-giving and especially so when I'm confused. I went from a potential? interest to a friend, but it still feels like the same as it ever did.

I has a headache from this confusion, but I will continue forth in this role that I have been given and I shall perform it ceaselessly from here on out.

Maybe this makes me strange

I'm contemplating on getting a tumblr. There are way too many funny things circulating the internet to just have one means of expressing myself and sometimes all I want to say is one picture. Then again, this blog has INCREDIBLY deviated from the initial premise and now it's more of a personal/random blog rather than me trying to become a better person through each entry.

The real intent, besides all of that is to share this, which sums up my feelings on the OBL issue perfectly <3

"The death of your enemy is not a victory. Osama Bin Laden's death is little more than that. It is easy to be glad that a murderer is gone, but to be glad that another human life has been lost and wasted is wrong. His death does not bring back those who died in his name or indirectly at his hand and whatever vital information he may have had is gone with him. Killing your enemy does not bring justice upon them." - L

this is the first day of my life ♥

such a beautiful music video/song that I wanted to share with all of you who make my life so enjoyable and I love all of you so much =]

I'm glad I didn't die before I met you ♥